sleeping shiner

shiner dog likes to sleep on the floor, at the head of the bed, right by the window. she sometimes sleeps on the bottom of the curtain panel and while she's moving around to get comfortable, the curtains open a little letting the outside light fall on my face when i'm trying to sleep. we're getting her a doggie bed soon.

early morning sun shines
through the crack between fabrics.
i am still dreaming.

down

kind of in a not so good place right now. i'm sure thing will get back to normal soon enough, but until then, i'm feeling really down.

i kiss you goodbye,
my tear-stained cheeks, salty lips,
longing for much more.

in the cold, cold night

happy new year. it's cold in la. colder than i remember it ever being, but i always say that -- i have a very selective, somewhat short term memory so i'm not completely sure what it was like last winter. anyhow, i feel like i haven't been very good at haikus lately, so here's one written a few months back.

lying in the dark,
your hot breath on my cold skin
warms me to the core.

oh, christmas tree

rkd and i picked up a 6'6" noble fir this weekend. it's lovely and smells like a forest. it's the first time both of us have ever bought one on our own. i've decorated plenty but have never actually gone to pick one out, haul it off over your shoulder (yes, rkd is a lumberjack strong man), plop it on top of your car, and hack off the weirdo, jenky branches (i got to use an ax!). this is also our first christmas together. <3

sprinkled red and gold,
tiny lights illuminate
our first sparkling pine.

heart

broken thought/sentence but i still like this one.

see through to my heart
where your name's written across.
it will always be.

cuddle buddy

i've had oafie bear for six years now. he's my favorite cuddle buddy because he keeps me company when i'm sleeping alone, he helps me warm up in bed, he doesn't mind when i squeeze him too hard, and seriously, he's just so gosh darn furry and soft and cute. it's been getting colder at nights so i tend to bundle up with him under the covers.

hairs standing on end
as a chill creeps down my spine.
i hold you closer.

oldie

i haven't really had the time to write lately so i pulled out my drafts and found this one. it's rather sad but i think i was going through some heartbreak at the time. it's old so don't worry about me now... i'm happy and feeling extremely loved these days!


tell me you love me,
even if it's just pretend.
i'll believe it's real.

drip drop

it's been cloudy and rainy in los angeles for the last few days. i never want to get out of bed because it's the perfect cuddling weather.

drifting into dreams,
the only sound of the night -
rain drop lullaby.

home

i really like the song "home" from edward sharpe and the magnetic zeros. it gets stuck in my head every now and then. "home is wherever i'm with you." it was in my head when i wrote this.

i've been here before,
waiting for you to come home,
but this time, i'll stay.

baby ellie!

we have a new baby girl in the family! her name's elizabeth (although karen and i are trying to get the nickname ellie to stick) and she's one week old today. i can't wait to see what a beautiful girl she grows up to be but until then, i have this tiny little baby to hold. seriously, she's so little and so delicate, i'm afraid i'll break when i hold her.

i didn't mean for this haiku to rhyme, but it just kind of worked out that way.

bright eyes, button nose,
tiny fingers, teeny toes --
with you, my heart grows.

sickly sweetheart

poor rkd is sick. it's really hard to get up in the morning and get ready for work when he's still in in bed sleeping. i know he's sick and feeling like poop, but i still like being under the covers with him.

sleeping in till late
i find myself wanting more
of me next to you.

i like bike

we looked at bicycles this weekend. rkd has been wanting one for a while now so we finally had time to go out to linus bikes in venice for a test ride. we each took one out a test-ride. at one point, i looked at rkd and he had the biggest smile on his face while riding around on his future fixed gear. i think we both forgot how much fun it is on a bike.


feeling the soft breeze
as we ride through empty streets.
you look so happy!

white hot

rkd took me on a surprise mini vacation labor day long weekend getaway to palm springs. so cute, so romantic, and oh-so-hot! we spent the weekend mainly poolside at the ace hotel, with occasional midday naps, lots of cool cocktails and great eats. we also had time for the desert zoo, gambling, and most fun of all, vroom-vrooming around on our scooter. i was withering in the 110+ degree heat but since i was with my honey and my favorite pup, i couldn't complain. it was the perfect weekend.


in search for relief,
out of sight from the white sun,
we find each other.

workday

rkd and i both work downtown. this is convenient because it means we can plan for lunch dates in the middle of the week. it's such a nice way to break up the humdrum workday.


this one particular lunch date stood out in my memory. we were at the corner of 6th and flower, about to part ways and go back to work in our respective buildings, and we were kissing goodbye. it was one of those tippy toe, kick my leg back and up moments. i wrote this on my walk back to the office.


on downtown sidewalks,
it's business as usual.
and we are in love.

sleeping beauty

there's this super cute thing that rkd does when he wakes me up in the mornings. before i get out of bed, i pretend to be sleeping and he kisses me so i can pretend wake up, just like in the fairy tale.


am i still dreaming?
a kiss from my prince charming
wakes me from my sleep.